DAY 329: TEN THINGS THAT MAKE YOU ANGRY

okay, I’m not proud of some/most of these but here goes:

  • when I lose/forget things
  • when I make tentative plans with someone and they suddenly become completely uncommunicative when I’m trying to reach them
  • when someone I respect says something incredibly ignorant. even more than making me angry this really hurts me. I hate the feeling of losing respect for someone, even if it’s only partial. 
  • when some one expects me to compromise something incredibly important to me for something less important. 
  •  8:30 class
  • oatmeal raisin cookies are deceptive little bitches
  • tuesdays, usually
  • the girl in my poetry class with a pi tattoo behind her ear
  • the fact that i can’t ride the red line southbound right now
  • the fact that all of these things piss me off. i dislike being angry because it’s such a waste of energy

DAY 328: YOUR HAIR TODAY

well, I was feeling crafty so I looked up crown/halo braid tutorials which all said it’s very difficult to do oneself but I was like whatever I will try, and with the help of my mom holding some strands while I reached around the other side of my head and my best friend holding a mirror up for me, it turned out very messy, but I kind of like messy. I’ll have to keep practicing, though. It’s also difficult to get a good picture but:

also in case you noticed, yes one of my bedroom walls is covered with 28 pictures of Audrey Hepburn. It’s fine.

DAY 327: HAVE YOU READ THE TWILIGHT SAGA? DID YOU LIKE IT?

I started them right when the second one came out so they weren’t quite as big of a deal, and I definitely had a phase where I was very obsessed. A lot of my obsession diminished with the fact that the last one was the worst idea ever. The movies are rather  painful, though I did go to midnight premieres for New Moon and Eclipse. I’m really not that ashamed about any of this because I always knew they were not actually great examples of writing by any means but I’m not going to pretend I was ever too cool to read, own, enjoy, and talk about them with my friends.

DAY 326: HAVE YOU READ HARRY POTTER? DID YOU LIKE IT?

I am not sure this question dignifies an answer.

Obviously I have read Harry Potter, I have lived Harry Potter, OKAY?


"Did I like it"

what soulless world do you live in where people might not like Harry Potter because I don’t want to go there

DAY 325: FAVORITE CHARACTER OF ANY BOOK

OKAY I HAVE TO PICK SEVERAL CAUSE THAT’S JUST TOO HARD

  • Severus Snape, *obviously*
  • Oskar Schell, of Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close
  • Atticus Finch
  • Elizabeth Bennet
  • Holly Golightly
  • okay like most of the characters in the Harry Potter Books are my favorite characters let’s be honest

DAY 324: WHAT BOOK WOULD YOU LIKE TO PRODUCE THE MOVIE FOR?

  • if I had total control in directing and casting and even some writing though I would probably hypothetically ask the author, I would want to make Stargirl by Jerry Spinelli
  • also the novel that my best friend and I wrote in 8-10th grade would be an amazing movie. actually it would be a much better movie than it would be a book because it’s essentially already a screenplay (it’s mostly witty dialogue, intense description, and inner monologue). 

DAY 323: YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE FROM YOUR FAVORITE BOOK?

ONE of my favorite quotes from ONE of my favorite books is

"…what I believe is not what I say I believe, what I believe is what I do."

and that is from Donald Miller’s Blue Like Jazz which I recommend to anyone and I think is the book that has changed my life more than any other. 

DAY 322: ONE PET PEEVE

That person who just has to equivocally hate everything and then every once in a while love the thing that everyone else hates just because they can seem to have some really elevated and mature taste. I just wonder how that person exists because I know they secretly must love half of the things they claim to hate because no one hate popular culture that much, like, does that person just lie in bed, thinking about their day and all the moments they had to squelch any bit of fangirling they secretly wanted to gush about that movie that they hate BUT THEY KEEP SEEING ALL THE POPULAR THINGS JUST SO THEY CAN HATE THEM

okay sorry but seriously, we all know that person 

DAY 321: WHAT MOVIE DO YOU REALLY WANT TO SEE?

Honestly I have seen nothingggg this summer so

DAY 320: THE FIRST BOOK YOU EVER READ?

Well I memorized Madeline when I was three but I couldn’t really “read” it. The first books I really remember reading were Little House on the Prairie.

DAY 319: WOULD YOU RATHER LIVE IN THE EARLY 1990s?

Only if I were Cher from Clueless.

DAY 318: ARE YOU HAPPY WITH THE WAY YOU LOOK?

I’m going to be pretty honest. I’ve always felt like I am “thin enough.” Meaning, there is no particular reason I need to be thinner, though I could potentially be thinner. I’ve had people tell me I have “a perfect body,” because they think I have objectively ideal proportions. And it’s awkward for positive things to be hard to hear, but I’ll explain what I mean. Why it’s hard for me to hear that from anyone. Now, my body is very resilient. I know most people can’t eat like I do and look like I do. Truthfully, I like running. I like the focus is requires, I like the satisfaction it can bring, I like how good it feels to stop after 3 or 4 miles or on the very rare occasion 7 or 8 miles. I makes me feel healthy, but deep down I know I don’t run because I like to feel healthy. I run out of fear for my appearance more than I run out of desiring to feel strong. I run to stop feeling guilty. I may not have to try as hard, but I still have to try. I feel guilty because I know there are girls who wish they had my body. But I’m not happy with it. I don’t think, “yeah, my body is pretty perfect!” I wish I could. I wish I loved my body as much as I say I do. I wish I could really grasp that it doesn’t matter because personality is what makes us truly lovely. Fortunately and unfortunately, these thoughts are all about me. I have much tinier friends I think are beautiful, I have friends who are bigger than me who I think are beautiful. I wish I didn’t have to be like anyone else and I could just be me and I could accept the way I look the same way I accept the way others look. But the first step is knowing and acknowledging this, and the second step is trying.

I don’t need positive affirmation from others, that’s not going to make me love myself.

DAY 317: WHAT ARE YOUR FEARS?

Not living up to my potential might be my biggest one.

DAY 316: WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CITY?

Minneapolis will probably always be my favorite city. 

DAY 315: WHAT IS YOUR DEFINITION OF HATE?

I think hate is a power more than it is an emotion. We can hate without really feeling it, without knowing why, we can be ignorant, or we can resent the power of something or someone else making us feel powerless. I think hate is a power because hate is passionate enough to illicit action that’s about tearing someone else down more than about helping yourself grow through it, about them being wrong more than about you being right. Hate is a power that makes us hard, not resilient. I think we remain resilient through persistence, determination, and hope.